Why so blue, Melissa!?

Every year for as long as I can remember I get this overwhelming feeling of sadness during my birthday. It’s hard to explain and much harder to put into words but I will try…   I don’t recall ever having a traumatic experience during these days that would cause any sadness it’s just something that happens.  I feel the most alone during this time of year.  It’s hard to believe that being married, surrounded by love and great friends I feel empty.  Perhaps it just me reflecting back on the last 12 months of my life.   Thinking about the what if’s, the why’s, the what don’ts…etc.  I’m simply lost in thought.

This year I thought it would be different. I was in Vegas, living it up and having a great time — why would I get sad, I asked myself.  Well, that day arrived (December 16th), I woke up fine but then that feeling of emptiness filled within me.  I was sad and what made it worse was not receiving that one special call I was waiting for.  My head went into overdrive.  I was hurt & angry – There was no excuse but I chose not let one person ruin my day.  I wiped the tears and put on a smile.  Sometimes the ones you love hurt you the most. Why!? Why!? Why!?


I still feel like my head is still on overdrive… over thinking, thinking, thinking & over thinking some more.  Today I was with a dear friend and he noticed something was wrong.  “Why so blue, Melissa?”, he asked.  That awkward moment when they ask you what’s wrong and you get a knot in your throat.  I was looking at him and screaming but the words were not flowing out of my mouth.  I felt like I was in a crowded room screaming and no one hears a thing. (Thanks Katy Perry)  All I could say was that I was O.K.  I was clearly lying.  I’m not o.k. but sometimes it’s ok not to be, right!? Does that make any sense?  Regardless of how I was feeling, my dear friend manages to make me smile and forget about it all and for that I am truly grateful.  blah blah blah

I’m just scared to death that things will change. (only one person will understand.)

Enough babble for today… I’m not so good at sharing my personal life. I hope you didn’t have to hit snooze while reading this.. HA!

Until next time… Peace & Love.



Charlie runs to Samantha when he sees her fall to the floor.  “Are you O.K.?”, he yells.  Samantha is in tears and can’t believe that she’s living this nightmare. “Why?, Why?, Why?” she kept on screaming.  Charlie picks her up and tells her that everything is going to fine.  Samantha runs to the bedroom, she is in a state of panic and screams “I’m leaving, I can’t take this anymore. He was here, he killed Chloe.”  Charlie runs after her and finds her packing her bags.  Charlie calmly takes the clothes from her hands, sits her down and says,  “Baby, please try to calm down.  I know you’re scared but everything is going to be fine.  I have an idea, let’s leave to the Hampton’s for a few days.”  Samantha smiles and says. “O.K. but we leave today.”

A few hours later,  Samantha receives a call from detective Williams. “Ms. Fox, we have discovered that John Demetrio signed over his business to a silent partner because he was taking a leave of absence.  Samantha gasps. We also spoke to the building security and secured the videos for further review.  They advised that its maintenance day. We are only assuming that’s how he gained access to your floor.  We will keep you posted.”  “Thank you for your help.”, Samantha says.

Charlie and Samantha arrive in the Hampton’s.  Samantha sits on the balcony and in a second gets lost in her thoughts. A memory of her and Charlie playing in the sand pops in her head. She whispers, “I love you, Charlie.”

Later that night, they go to their favorite Italian restaurant, Giuseppe’s. They order a bottle of wine and drinks.  Samantha just stares out the window.  “The night is getting so ugly.  It’s dark and gloomy.”, she tells Charlie.

All awhile, John is at the bar watching themJohn flirts with the bartender and manages to slip a pill into Charlies drink before the waiter picks it up. 

“Cheers my love, to new beginnings.”, They toast.  Charlie takes his drink like a shot and orders another one.  He tells the waiter to keep the drinks coming.

During dinner, Samantha gets an eerie feeling that she is being watched.  She looks around but sees no one out of the ordinary.  All of sudden, she hears her name being whispered from a far. [S A M A N T H A — S A M A N T H A]  Her body fills with goose bumps. She turns and sees no one. She thinks to herself that it’s nothing.  She’s had a long day and her mind is playing tricks on her.  There is a familiar smell in the air, she knows that scent.  It’s John’s cologne, she swears she smells it.  She asks Charlie, “Can you smell that?”  He looks puzzled and says “Yeah, the marinara smells fantastic.” “No silly, it smells like mens cologne, musky.”  He just stares at her and says, “Cologne?, I only smell the sauce.  It’s in your head love, how many glasses of wine have you had?”

About an hour later, Charlie is feeling really happy and a little dizzy.  He goes to the bathroom and bumps into John. [John lifts Charlies house keys from his jacket]  “Sorry man, I didn’t see you.”, Charlie says.  “No problem, are you O.K?”, John asks.  “Yeah, just too much to drink.”  John smiles and says, “It happens to the best of us.”

John walks away smiling and mumbles… “this is just the beginning.”

A few minutes later Charlie comes back to the table looking pale white and tells Samantha he isn’t feeling good and that he wants to leave.  Charlie is in no condition to drive so Samantha gets the car.  As soon as Charlie gets in the car, he knocks out and Samantha is left driving alone, the night is gray and rainy.  All the lights are out and Samantha’s visibility is limited.  She sees in a far distance some flashing lights, her heart jumps to her throat, she slows down a little and sees no one, she quickly drives past the car but when she looks back in rear view mirror she sees a man standing there looking at her.  She couldn’t take her eyes off him and for a quick second she looks forward and sees what seems to be a mans shadow, she breaks abruptly and her car skids off the road.  She could hear her heart pounding, her pulse is racing. Charlie wakes up and yells “What is going on?”  Samantha is shaken and says, “A man, a deer,  I don’t know — oh my god.”  Charlie mumbles something and knocks out again. She takes a deep breath and continues on her way.  It’s raining furiously and thunder is striking down every minute. She pulls up to the drive way and sees the lights are out.  ” How strange, I thought I left them on.”, she thinks.  She opens the garage door and drives in.  She wakes up Charlie, “Baby, we are home, get up.”  She pulls Charlie out the car, goes to unlock the door when she realizes it’s open.  “Charlie, didn’t you lock the door?”, she yells.  Charlie says, “Yeeeaahhh man, I think I did.{slurring words}.” Samantha shakes her head and mumbles, “idiot”.

Samantha locks the door behind her and takes Charlie to the room.  She puts him on the bed and undresses him.  She hears an eerie noise coming from the other room.  Her heart stops for moment. “It’s probably the wind.”, she thinks.  She takes off her clothes and puts on a t-shirt.  She goes into the bathroom to take off her contact lens and wash her face.  While she is looking for the facial cleanser, the lights begin flickering.  She jumps then realizes it’s just the thunder and lightning.  She is washing her face and her ears are echoing with the sound of the wind and branches hitting the window.  Her heart is racing.  When she looks up to dry her face, she sees a mans reflection in the mirror.  She screams and closes her eyes.  When she opens her eyes, and turns around and he is gone.  Her heart jumped to her throat, she was shaking.  “I must be imagining things.”, she thought.  She finishes up in the bathroom and goes to the kitchen to get a glass of water and some aspirin.

All of a sudden, she hears what sounds like footsteps coming from the living room.  Her pulse begins to race, she is frightened, she could feel every hair on her body stand up.  For a split second, she can’t move but she ignores it.  She grabs a glass from the counter and looks for the aspirin.  A lightning bolt strikes the beach and as she looks up, the kitchen lights up again and she sees John in the window reflection and when she turns around, he grabs her. She screams, the glass falls and shatters. As she runs, John grabs her by the hair; she pulls away but trips and hits her head on the end table.

A couple of hours later, Samantha wakes up and is tied to a chair, she is facing Charlie who is still knocked out.

She starts screaming but no one can hear her..


For a quick second, he loosens his grip from her neck and she screams “John..?”, He tightens the grip and says “Yes, It’s me.  I told you that if it’s not me, it was nobody!!  How does it feel to have your life being squeezed out of you, Samantha?  Samantha’s eyes are filled with tears and terror. That’s how I felt when you left me.  Remember this moment, Samantha!!”.  John waits until Samantha is about to pass out, and as he feels her grip loosening up; he takes out his pocket knife, jabs it into the wall, and nicks her ear. He lets her go and then disappears. [Before he leaves, he slips something into her purse]  Samantha is now on the floor screaming and crying she’s in shock.  She can’t believe that John would do this to her.  She panics and starts looking for her phone. Her hands are shaking, she can’t remember her password, she is in distress. After a few minutes of trying to calm herself down, she is able to call 911. [crying]

  • Dispatcher: 911, What is your emergency?
  • Samantha:  Please help me, I was just attacked.
  • Dispatcher:  Ma’am are you hurt?
  • Samantha:  Yes, I’m bleeding from my ear. Please help.
  • Dispatcher:  Did you see the attacker?
  • Samantha:  Yes, it was my ex boyfriend John.
  • Dispatcher: What is your location?
  • Samantha:  I think I’m at the corner of 34th street near the coffee shop.  I don’t know, I don’t remember.  I was walking and dragged into the alley.
  • Dispatcher:  Ma’am I’m sending a unit now.  Please stay calm.
  • Samantha:  Thank you, I’ll try.

After she hangs up, she immediately calls Charlie.  [still crying]

  • Samantha:  Charlie, I need you now.
  • Charlie: What’s wrong?
  • Samantha: I was attacked by John and I’m hurt.
  • Charlie: What? Attacked? Where the fuck is Tony?
  • Samantha: Yes baby, I’m sorry I never called him and I walked to the coffee shop. I already called the cops.  Please hurry.
  • Charlie: I’m going to kill him.  I’ll be there in a few minutes.

Charlie’s head is going a thousand miles per hour.

Charlie stays on the phone with Samantha trying to console her.  He could hear the fear in her voice and the only thing he could tell her was that he was sorry and that he loved her.  A few minutes later Sam tells him that the cops have arrived, he tells her that he sees them and he’ll be right there.

He parks and runs towards her.  Some cops try to stop him but he yells “That’s my girl, let me through!!”  He pushes pass them and when he sees Samantha on the ground full of blood he almost collapses.  He screams to her, “Samantha”  He falls to his knees and holds her.  He holds back his tears and whispers in her ear. “I’m going to kill him.”  He hugs her tight but has to quickly let go because the ambulance has arrived. They lift her up and place her in the gurney, she is yelling to them “I’m fine, I want to go home.”  Charlie says “NO, we are going to the hospital Samantha!!.”  He jumps in the ambulance.  Before they drive off, a detective approaches and tells Samantha they will be in contact later in the day to get all the information.

While waiting in the hospital, Charlie calls Tony (the driver) and tells him to pick them up.  Tony expressed his concerns but Charlie told him not too worry that he would explain later and will need his help. Tony had the connections Charlie needed to resolve the John issue.

Samantha was finally going home. The hospital discharged her and gave her a pain prescription.  Besides the bruises and the three stitches, Samantha was going to be fine.

Tony is outside waiting for them.  Charlie and Samantha get in the car and head home.  Charlie tells Tony that once he drops them off to stay because he needs to discuss some business with him,  Tony says “O.K. no problem.”  Once they are home, Samantha runs into bedroom to take a hot bath, she is an emotional wreck.  While she is the bath, Charlie takes the opportunity to talk to Tony.  “Hey Tony.  I need your help on this matter and money is not an issue.  Whatever it takes.  I won’t allow that son of bitch to ever hurt my girl again. I need you to be her body-guard 24/7, I don’t want you to let her out your sight.”  Tony nods and says “No worries, I will take care of it.”

Samantha comes out of the room and yells to Charlie, “Babe, have you seen Chloe?  I can’t find her.  He replies “No, love I haven’t, I’ll help you look for her in a few. The front desk just called that the detectives are here and they are on the way up.

Charlie opens the door as Samantha approaches.

Good afternoon Ms. Fox, I’m detective Williams and this is my partner detective Johnson.  We need to ask you a few questions.  Samantha says, “Yes, of course, please come in and sit down.”

  • Detective: Ms. Fox, please tell us what happen?
  • Samantha: This morning I walked to the coffee shop as I usually do for an espresso and to get some fresh air. When I was finished, I decided to continue walking. It was a beautiful day.  I remember crossing the street, walking around a corner then I was grabbed.
  • Detective:  What time did you leave the coffee shop?
  • Samantha: I think it was around 10:15 am or so, but not certain.
  • Detective:  Did you see your attacker?
  • Samantha:  At first, No, he was wearing a mask but when he was choking me he took off the mask and then I realized it was John, my ex boyfriend.  Things didn’t end well in L.A.
  • Detective: Are you sure it was him?
  • Samantha: What type of stupid question is that?  Yes, I’m positive!!
  • Detective: Apologies Ms. Fox, just doing our job.
  • Samantha: I’m sorry, I just can’t believe that John would ever attack me. I can’t wrap my head around it.  I remember him joking about how he would never let me leave him.  I always thought he was joking.
  • Detective: Ms. Fox his love turned into an Obsession.  We need a full description and any information you can give us about him.
  • Samantha:  Well, he is about 6’4, 220 lbs, black hair, light brown eyes.  He owns a charter company in L.A. called Prestige Air and his full name is John Demetrio.  I think I have an old business card with photo in my wallet.
  • Detective:  That would be greatly appreciated.

Samantha looks over to Charlie and says “Babe, could you bring me my purse, I threw on the bed and while you’re there can you check to see if Chloe is under the bed.”  Samantha and the detectives continue talking when Charlie hands her the bag.  She reaches in and grabs her wallet, she pulls out a few cards and finds John’s old card.  She hands it to detective but something catches her eye in her purse, she reaches in, pulls it out and it’s Chloe’s collar with blood stains.  Samantha screams “OH MY GOD, he killed my baby Chloe. How did he get her?”  She looks at Charlie and says, “I can’t stay here, I don’t feel safe anymore. I can’t I’m sorry.”  Charlie just hugs her tight and tells her that everything is going to be O.K.

  • Detective: Ms. Fox, Chloe is your dog?
  • Samantha: No, she’s my white Persian kitty.
  • Detective: When did you last see her?
  • Samantha: This morning before I left the house.  I always kiss her good-bye before I leave.
  • Detective: What time did you leave?
  • Samantha: It was 9:00 am
  • Detective: Are you sure she didn’t escape?
  • Samantha: Yes!
  • Detective: Ms. Fox we will need to take the collar into evidence.
  • Detective:  We will find out how he managed to pass security to get into your apartment.

Samantha is shaken and scared and decides to dump out everything inside her purse.  She doesn’t want any more surprises.  After a quick scan, she notices two iPods.  She says, “What the hell? Why do I have two iPods?” In that moment the past seven months flashed in front of her eyes – visions of the man on the flight to N.Y. – the weird lyrics she heard – all the eery moments she felt she was being watched.   She yells “All this time, John was stocking me.  He was the man I saw on the flight.  He is the one I saw at the airport, he is the one that was always watching.”  Samantha tells the detectives about the flight from L.A. and the weird messages she heard on the iPod.

  • Detective: Ms. Fox, we will have to take both the iPods into evidence.
  • Detective:  Did you notice anything missing or strange when you arrived?
  • Samantha: I don’t know, we just got home from the hospital. {looks at Charlie}
  • Detective: Ms. Fox, don’t worry, we will catch him.  If you remember anything else.  Please contact us immediately.

The detectives leave and Samantha falls to the floor…