Doubt

I’ve learned that when something is eating me up inside that I have to face the issue head on. It’s not always the easiest questions to ask but I rather ask then stay with doubt. Doubt ruins everything…wouldn’t you agree?

There is nothing more dreadful than the habit of doubt. Doubt separates people. It is a poison that disintegrates friendships and breaks up pleasant relations. It is a thorn that irritates and hurts; it is a sword that kills.

Today, I asked a dear friend some tough questions, I just needed to look into his eyes and get his reaction. It wasn’t easy, to be honest. I didn’t think about the consequences of knowing the truth. I didn’t care. I just needed to know even if that meant having my heart-broken. I rather be hurt by the truth than comforted by a lie because the truth hurts only once but a lie every time you remember it.

There is no room in my garden of orchids, for seeds of doubt.

Peace & Love xox

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A simple letter…

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I don’t know why it’s so hard to talk to you.  I don’t know why I fear your thoughts.  I don’t know why I get a knot in my throat when you ask about my feelings. I don’t know why you make me question everything. I don’t know why you make me happy, sad, and angry – sometimes all at once.  I don’t know why you love me.  I don’t know why I love you.  I don’t know if you’re a blessing or a lesson.  What I do know is that I wouldn’t change you for the world.

I belong with you, you belong with me
You’re my sweetheart
I belong with you, you belong with me
You’re my sweetheart

With love always,

Peace & Love xox

18 Questions that everyone’s too afraid to ask…

I came across this read posted on Oprah.com.  Leigh Newman comes up with the intimidating but crucial ideas we all need to examine. Take the plunge. It may change your life.  I’m definitely curious!

Read more: http://www.oprah.com/spirit/How-to-Do-What-You-Love-Leigh-Newman/6#ixzz20SS3sPpp

Let’s take the plunge together… 

  1. Who do I yell at in the quiet of my head?  I’m yelling at myself…or the person I wish I can scold. 
  2. If I had shingles, who would I call who might make me the tiniest bit better?  I only have a handful of people who I trust and would be able to share something personal. (It doesn’t have to be shingles, change it too whatever fits your life.)
  3. What’s the one thing that nobody knows about me? I’m very private.
  4. When was the last time I laughed until root beer came out of my nose?  I laugh everyday but it’s been years since I laugh so hard my drink comes out my nose. LOL
  5. Do I have one little doable thing that always makes me happy?  Walks on the beach. Sitting under a tree and loosing myself in a good read.
  6. Why don’t I do more of the above?  In other words, doing the things you love.  There should not be any excuses.  There is aways time for you…  I need to make more time for me!!
  7. Did I take on __________ just to get ___________ to love me?  I believe in doing things for myself and not to please others.  If they like me, great.  If not, too bad. 
  8. How often does my body scream, “You’re a crazy lady!”?  I only yell at my body when I’m burning the candle on both ends.  When I don’t rest when I should, eat healthy, or get exercise…etc.
  9. Would I trust my partner to choose a nursing home for me?  Yes, I know he would choose the best place for me.
  10. When do I make people afraid of me?  I would have to say at work.  I don’t stay quiet and speak my mind.  
  11. Will I be able to retire without moving to another country?  If the economy continues to drop — who knows??
  12. Am I being my best self in my romantic relationship? Yes
  13. If I pretended for six months that I couldn’t buy anything, aside from my car or my house that cost more than $150 could I do it?  Honestly, No!
  14. Can I stop being critical for just two weeks?  Easier said than done. 
  15. What do I lie about?  I believe honesty is the best policy so I prefer not to lie. 
  16. Can I name one thing I’m really, really good at? Shopping..HA!  On a serious note, I’m really good at listening.  
  17. Do I make others feel bad if they’re not good at this one thing?  I don’t think I do…
  18. Am I meant to be doing something greater? Absolutely, I just have to keep searching…
Now that wasn’t so scary maybe a little boring but definitely not scary. 😉 😉
What are your thoughts? Are you afraid to answer any of these questions….
Until later.
Peace & Love xox

Questions, questions and more questions…??

If you were asked to fill out a form with the following questions, what would you reply?  Take a moment and read over — what are your thoughts?  Don’t simply answer Yes or NO 

  • Do you believe that all things happen for a reason?
  • Is there a plan written out for everyone?
  • Do you have free will? Or is it just the appearance of free will?
  • It is chance when you meet someone or pre-planned?
  • Is there a fine line between coincidence and fate? They’re two words that describe different perspectives of the same events.
Here, then, is what I believe… 😉
  1. I believe all things happen for a reason whether it’s good or bad. There is no such thing as being in the wrong place at the wrong time.
  2. I believe we make our own plans in regards to careers, friendships and relationships. Life and death — I think that’s written out along the way.
  3. I believe I do have free will (the choices I make along the way, will determine how things fall into place).
  4. I believe if you’re meant to meet someone, it will happen eventually. They will come into your life for a purpose, it might be a quick visit or they might stay awhile.
  5. Coincidence and Fate — this one is a little difficult. Gathering my thoughts… O.K. there is a very fine line but I do believe some things can be purely coincidental. Why not!? There doesn’t have to be a reason all the time.
It seems as though we are always looking for an answer. We are definitely curious creatures. 😉
What about those…
People who pay hundreds of dollars to know what will happen in their future instead of living life day by day. Whatever happens, will happen but it does spark some curiosity. Wouldn’t you agree?
  • Do you believe in fortune tellers and tarot cards?
  • Do you believe in palm readers?
  • Do you believe in Santeria?
I will not rant on about belief’s and religion because to each their own.   I respect everyone’s choice of religion whether I agree or not.   It’s not a discussion.  I just find it fascinating.
To be honest…
I’ve always been curious about palm reading, I even bought a book.  I don’t know how accurate it is but it makes for a great read. 😉  Yes, I even own a set of tarot cards. HA!
I met one person over a decade ago that said she had the ability but didn’t like to practice her gift because she didn’t like to give bad news.  I was a little taken back but she took my palm anyway and gave me a brief read about my long life and that I would have three kids but not with my current husband.   SAY WHAT!?  All of a sudden she let go and said she couldn’t continue.  I don’t know what she read or saw in my palm at that moment but I didn’t ask.   I never forgot that day and I don’t think I ever will.   That moment sparked my curiosity but to this day, I’ve never gone to get a full reading.   Although its fascinating, I don’t need to know what “might’ happen.
On that note….
Live your life to the fullest.   Tomorrow is never promised.  
Don’t forget.  Whatever happens, happens….
Peace & Love xox