Embracing the new me…

Nothing that takes work comes easy especially when it comes to weight loss. It’s been eight weeks since I gave birth and I’ve been trying to lose the extra 25 lbs I gained.  It’s frustrating not seeing the weight come off and quickly as I had hoped but I am staying positive.  In the meantime, I am embracing the new me, embracing my new curves.  I was feeling down and completely disgusted with myself until I talked myself out of it.  I was being ridiculous, the body changes with a pregnancy and I have to accept it. I shouldn’t be complaining considering that I had a great pregnancy and my total weight gain wasn’t as bad as some of my friends that averaged a weight gain of 60-80 lbs everyone is different.  I only gained 40 lbs and now only 25 lbs from my postpartum weight.  I will continue to eat clean and exercise until I see the results I want.  Besides, it did take nine months. 😉

I’m not going to lie, it’s also been very depressing not having anything to wear.  Yes, I’ve said it, “I have nothing to wear!”  I sound like a typical woman standing in front of a closet lined with clothes from one end to the other.  The problem is that I don’t have a closet full of multiple sizes, I don’t believe in that anymore.  At one point in my life, I use to have several sizes considering my yoyo weight loss/gain and I never worried because I always had something to wear but one day I changed all that and I cleaned house.  I didn’t want to fall back into that bad habit.  Once I lost the weight, I wanted to keep it off and I did. Well until now, that I have a little extra. ::wink::

Wearing clothes that fit right makes all the difference so I went out and bought a few outfits in the meantime considering my mood.  Needless to say, my shopping day was depressing but much-needed.  Despite the larger size, I feel great.  I’m embracing my new curves and embracing the new woman I see standing in the mirror.  It’s been such a wonderful experience so far and every time I look into my beautiful baby boys eyes I fall in love all over again.  At the end of the day, it’s just excess weight because I hold the most important gift in my arms everyday and for that, I am truly blessed and grateful.

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Note to self: Beauty is not defined by SIZE.

Until next time…Ciao

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